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this post marks my 1 month hiatus updating in this space. dont ask me why. there are too many things to do, so many things happening, and its affecting me every single day. my health is deteriorating every month. problems, problems, problems. u name it, i have it. if you have issues, i have too. so dont tell me youre the only ones who have issues.
dont tell me what to do, which is to calm down and just smile. its hurting enough to become someone i dont want to be in other people's eyes. why do i have to follow every single thing they say? i feel like i have a rebel's brain but its in a Brady Bunch body.
sometimes i could just feel my anger building up every single day. and that 1 fine day, sooner or later, i will burst and just destroy things around me. it has been done, and it can be done again. my anger management skills is slowly failing me. and no one is helping me contain my anger, but instead adding more salt to the wound.
the government's pretty cocked up. everything about it is bull. the future is ours to make. what kind of crap motto is that? all i know is that the future is in the hands of 1 family of receding hairlines. if so the future is ours to make, how come i still see insecurities in the the people's faces?
how i miss my life. i really do. i miss my everyone's lives.
its pretty depressing. i sometimes curl up and just cry.

Why Does it Always Rain On Me?
I can’t sleep tonight Everybody saying everything’s alright
Still I can’t close my eyes I’m seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me? Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me? Even when the sun is shining
I can’t avoid the lightning I can’t stand myself I’m being held up by invisible men
Still life on a shelf whenI got my mind on something else
Sunny days Where have you gone? I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me? Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me? Even when the sun is shiningI can’t avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go? And why is it raining so? It’s so cold
I can’t sleep tonight Everybody saying everything’s alright Still I can’t close my eyes
I’m seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights Sunny days
Where have you gone? I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me? Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me? Even when the sun is shiningI can’t avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go? And why is it raining so? It’s so cold
Why does it always rain on me? Why does it always rain...