29.6.05

sins and sinners.

have you ever wondered how the past catches up to you? the way it creeps up to you..and you dont even notice it until you were bitten by it..
its scary sometimes. well most of the time it scares me. but what must we do in order to avoid it? we cant avoid it because once a mistake is done, it has a way of repeating it in your brain.
have you ever did something so, so wrong, that it hurts someone elses feeling? that it lowers their trust to us?
well i did.
how did you deal with it?
i cant deal with it but im trying to. its hard i know..i tried the easy way out and it riuned my system. and im gonna try to do it alone cos its my sin not others. im trying my very best to make it go away and make things better for the future.
but what i hate is sometimes..the past just cant let go. it remains, it haunts you. it appears in your dreams, becoming nightmares, and make you wake up and end up crying again.
it goes by the saying, "what goes around, comes around".
i hope it goes around by you too. i hope it haunts you too. if not now, maybe in the distant future.
i've made my mistakes..and i hope you forgive me.
and i hope what im doing now you are appreciating it and trusting me even more cos i know i've lost them so many times.

wouldn't it be nice if you could just take in another life and start anew?

:: she posted @ 1:19 AM ::

23.6.05

today is the day?

today is the day ive worked for 1 whole solid month! wow..amazing i can tolerate for so long..really amazing. and today i get my pay. bliss..
my ITE friends has started schooling back this monday. seeing and hearing them go to school makes me miss going back to school after the holidays, talking and telling our friends what we did during the break..basically i miss the school life. no more pocket money, no more uniforms (uniforms are good it saves money ok!), no more lame teachers to pick on, no more going and skipping class and sitting at the playground, no more going outside for breaks and come back to class late..and no more smoking(i dont smoke) and standing under the tree and making the tree dying even more. i miss my friends!!!
qianshu, gG are serving ns already in tekong. qianshu called me last week saying that hes in tekong already. wah...he's a man! hahahaah.
not to mention i've already checked my ITE exam results. got a C, A, B and B. my GPA point is 3. im so glad i got A for my project, and B for my model making project. yes, THAT model making project!

ive a feeling that something bad is gonna happen but i just cant put my finger on what it is. maybe its just me. haaah!
anyway, HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU, AYU!!!! may all your wishes come true and enjoy your birthday ok.

ok i have to go.
enjooooi.

:: she posted @ 11:23 PM ::

21.6.05

updates.

here are some updates from saturday till now.

Saturday - slacked half the day away..then went to play badminton at a hill with younger sis and boyfriend. initially i was the one playing till i sweat buckets. i need to tone up my body yo! but some toning up. at night the father brought us out to eat at chongpang hawker centre. O_0

Sunday - went to the grandmama and granddada(??) house to celebrate Father's Day. my siblings and i bought a coffee cake for the father and the father of the father. heheheheh. it was hot and joyous altogether.

Monday - workload has never been this much since i started on 24th may. its the size of 3 thick dictionaries. i nearly died.

Now - workload has been reduced to 1 dictionary size cos i did not go out to lunch. brought myojo instant noodle in a bowl. :D :D. save maaaah. photocopied a book about Erectile Dysfunctional. laughed to myself as i saw many, and i mean MANY, pictures of the male system. hahahaahaahah.

cant wait for friday.
$$$$$$$$$$$$$.

:: she posted @ 1:17 AM ::

16.6.05

bah..

Buried Myself Alive - The Used
you almost always pick the best times
to drop the worst lines you almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm red flashing lights
well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game and let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
so I could shut you out and let you go away for a long time

I guess it's ok I puked the day away I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back you're gonna have to ask

I think the chain broke away and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine but it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home

I guess it's ok I puked the day away I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that nicer than that
with my foot on your neck I finally have you
right where I want you
right where I want you
right where I want you
right where I want you

I guess it's ok I puked the day away I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer than that
and if you want me back you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer
nicer

:: she posted @ 10:44 PM ::

15.6.05

work quirk.

work has been ok. this week, i have ample work to do than the previous week. i think they are letting me rest for this week, cos alot of work has to be done. not to say i enjoy it, i just prefer to have something to do rather than sit and stare at the computer doing nothing. last week alone i finished reading a book from page 1 to 400++. and im web messenging every single day. i am that free.
next week. $$$$$$$$. and liyana is treating me to something i dare say, GOOD. heheheheh. lets go shopping next sunday, ok office rock chicks?
people here are ok. nice. some not nice. some cant smile. i dunno why. last week i was treated to a tiramisu by kak sha. yesterday i was treated a hershey cheesecake by kak rosie. if next week someone treats me cake again, im gonna be fat.
anyway..
to work!

:: she posted @ 7:30 PM ::

12.6.05

saturday with you and me.

saturday was well spent with my love, my sister and my best friends. gosh, now i realised how much i miss those guys (ayoshi and reizo) . and you too. <3 <3 <3 <3













till we meet again. and this time i will bring something to shove up your mouth ey, ayoshi? heheheheh.
my, my... im dreading for tomorrow...im wishing it will never come...argh.

:: she posted @ 6:14 AM ::

10.6.05

Freedom Gig.

im doing something for the Local Scene. here's information about the Freedom Gig coming soon!!

17th June 2005 - Friday - 6pm till late.
Admission: $8.00 per person, includes one free drink.
Venue: Planet Paradigm, 190 Clemenceau Ave, Singapore Shopping Centre Level 6. (4 mins walk from Dhoby Ghaut Mrt, next to Park Mall.)

Bands!

Hatred is Gifted
Bitter Liberty
Terminal Cry
Ronin
The Leaven Trait
Press Play
Semblence
Cross Function

Plenty of new bands up and coming! Do come and support us!!
Local Scene.

:: she posted @ 12:10 AM ::

8.6.05

......zzzz.....

MY GOODNESSSSSSS!!!
what the fuck is going on in this blardee office!!! since monday, i've done only at least an hour of work only!!! and after that im so freaking free!!! makdicow... and the office is freezing me to the bones!!! 6 fingers of mine are already numb to the core!!!

i need activity..
i neeeeeeeed...
my brain has been on sleep mode for so long, it hurts.
arghh...

:: she posted @ 10:57 PM ::

6.6.05

2 more weeks bebeh..

2 more weeeeekss... $$$$$$$. woohhoo.
my intray has been empty since 11.30am..and i've read a book halfway from page 1 to 104 from 1pm till now..yes i am that free.
these ppl are paying me to get my butt enhanced isit!!?? give me work lah i need to exercise my brain! arghhhh.
so many things to think about. stress kepala otak aku.
anyway. $$$$$$$$.
today my two fellow rock chicks are starting their new work!! office too, like me!!! heheheheheheh. shafiqah, OFFICE LIFE!!!
hehehehehehehe.
cheers!

:: she posted @ 2:05 AM ::