29.10.04

bonkers, we are?

my aunt called home yesterday. she said the kebaya she jahit for me now has a huge lobang at the perot!!!! aghhhhh. she didnt know the cloth cant be ironed at high temp. but, haiyahhhhh. was looking forward to wear it! why oh why....why people make such cloth that cant resist high temp??!! mom says its ok, i just got my rezeki, the $1200 scholarship. ah yelah tu. rezeki betol!
waaaaa~~~
will be going out with my bunch of friends later, for photoshoot. yeah uhuh. the dancers are meeting today! make way for me, your hometown pole dancer! woohoo here i come!
i want to thank the people who are really concerned about me, about my bf leaving for ns soon. agh..the agony!(that's my line okay!) hmmmm..
and ayu, i'll look forward for your shoulder to cry on..hope my head is not heavy for your small shoulder...whakakakakakah!
im out!

:: she posted @ 7:03 PM ::

28.10.04

somebody told me.



arhh....the day was a drag for me. only managed to get 3 hours of sleep yesterday night. i kept sneezing and sneezing, and i sound robotic (heeh!). but i was taken care of. weee~..hmmmm..there i go again.
as you can see in the pic, i slacked the whole day in and outside school. agh, nothing much to do. teachers are boring me, or otherwise. i feel a temperature coming. yes i will take care of myself.
my eyebags looked all set to go shopping with! hehehehehehek. its big..uhuk uhuk..
sleep will soothe it..as soon as i get some it will loosen..
ok, bye?

:: she posted @ 5:38 AM ::

27.10.04

trouble with myself.

damn. its official. my significant other is going to serve the country on the 8th of December. horror of all horrors. i always wanted him to go, but not so fast. too soon. he still havent finish teaching me major chord!!! hehehehehehehek. nampak gayanya, semboyan telah berbunyi. ke arah negara kamu berbakti. menjadi askar sejati, fight for your country! and oh, he's going to the army.
scared i am. for reasons too many. its gonna be too long, i wonder if im patient. im not good at it!
ahhhh. i got distinction for my elementary quantities test!!!!! woooohooo. now, to concentrate on other calculations. horror.
me and yana did our guitar session yesterday. yana, we will prevail! made our first emo song. i wanted to call it "nasi goreng" at first. huahahahahahahahak. cock sia. but, i wanted to call it, "confessions of Mona Lisa". yeah, i know, its emo. haaah!

hmmmmmmmm...
k bye for now!
anticipating...

:: she posted @ 1:40 AM ::

25.10.04

do you emo?

ah yes inshirah has a lot of time now. a lot a lot a lot a lot of time. hehehehehek. woohoo. feel a lot better when after breaking fast. if not my stomach will be growling like a mad dog 24/7.
and to you my dear fren, thanks for making me smile too with your sms-es. hehehehehek.
actually inshirah has no time no time no time no time. study, i have too. gonna have an elementary quantities test tomorrow. i aced the previous one, 100%. hope i'll ace this one too. and oh, my ite scholarship is in my handssss. hellooooo shopping. i'd like to thank the government for your $1200 donation to me. huahahahak.
can't wait for the band to really start after the rayas. we'll be training hard for now. its guitar-tongs for us firstly now. anyway, anyone know any good female drummer? that can play fast beats or two? tag me ay.
ok people, lets hear some vocal chords and sing to this. if you're a fan!

Muse - Time is running out.
I think I'm drowning asphyxiating I wanna break the spell that you've created
you're something beautiful a contradiction I wanna play the game I want the friction
you will bethe death of me yeah, you will bet he death of me
bury it I won't let you bury it I won't let you smother it I won't let you murder it
our time is running out
and our time is running out
you can't push it underground
we can't stop it screaming out
I wanted freedom but I'm restricted I tried to give you up but I'm addicted
now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation you'll never dream of breaking this fixation you will squeeze the life out of me
bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
our time is running out
and our time is running out
you can't push it underground
we can't stop it screaming out
how did it come to this
you will suck the life out of me
bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
our time is running out
and our time is running out
you can't push it underground
we can't stop it screaming out
how did it come to this?

i can't hear you!!!

:: she posted @ 5:17 AM ::

23.10.04

throb.



today will be the day. i can fast today. at laaaaast. i've been lagging for a few days now, say, 9? i think so. must check calendar later. my stomach's growling. hello fasting.spent the whole day yesterday at home, studying. and end up with a throbbing headache. and its getting worse today. too much calculations on a saturday is a no-no.i just hate it when a person in my loved-ones category thinks i cant do something for nuts. its just too depressing for me. i know im slow but im not that slow. and im not stupid either. or do you have little faith in me? that i cant make or do it?
how am i supposed to be when you're not giving me 100% support..and you made me cry today. is it batal for today? to cry when fasting? i dont know. i dont care. i'll just carry on fasting.
the sky is crying cold tears. its by my side for today.

:: she posted @ 11:23 PM ::

21.10.04

can't take it?
i have a teacher, who can't take jokes lightly. no matter how heavy the joke is played on him, he can't take it. my fellow classmate, Qianshu, who was doing a survey using the teacher's laptop, got a big knuckle knock on his head by that bloody teacher. Qianshu is his most hated student. Qianshu was so angry, he shouted all the vulgarities at the ass of a teacher. teacher said he was trying to damage the laptop, whereas its the opposite. he even called the police and complained about Qianshu showering him with vulgarities! he's such an asshole! teachers nowadays, so touchy.boyfriend's in the jamming room, im here stuck at home. sunday, guitar session. sunday and wednesday actually. damn my fingers are sore. all in the name of music.music = life.

:: she posted @ 6:51 AM ::

18.10.04

time is running out.


shotby.winedrops

indeed my time is running out. my patience, actually. i dont know for how long can i survive with this school, or subject for that matter. i dont think when i graduate, i'll be persuing my further studies in this line. or work with my qualifications. i need something that is according to my liking. my lifestyle. that shows excitement and not boring.
i want to be: a concert organiser.
or a rockstar. i want to achieve my dreams. not THEIR dreams. every parent want their children to be successful. but why not give them a chance to be successful in their own interests?
i wonder. and ponder. still i get no right answer.
do you?
anyway..


shotby.boyrancid

more soon.

:: she posted @ 6:12 AM ::

17.10.04

hungry?

although im not fasting, im not eating. HORMATI RAMADHAN. huahaha. my ass. first day of ramadhan i ate at burger king in broad daylight. with another satan friend of mine. heeh. deliciouso! but till, my stomach is grumbling like mad. i dont know if i can survive ramadhan this year, cos this year, ive been eating like a cow. and my body doesnt absorb those extra weight. so what the heck.
saturday turned out to be just an outing. with my bf, and his band members. we walked from orchard road, to city hall and our makan stop, suntec. and a lot of pics taken. will be uploaded soon.
being in school right now makes me think of food. and foolish things. im sleepy.
off to do my work. ok go!

:: she posted @ 11:37 PM ::

15.10.04

so much for my enthusiasm.

so much for my enthusiasm to fast on the first day of ramadhan. the red flag is up and running. damn!



as the substance ibuprofen soothes my aching muscles, i lay silent on my bed. thinking about why am i still afraid of ghosts at night,when the devils are locked up, up there. and i sense that something bad is about to happen.

now, should i go watch pug jelly at hmv tomorrow, or go snap some pics? decisions, decisions..bah.

:: she posted @ 5:57 AM ::

14.10.04

im just a loner.

hello. been too lazy and too preoccupied to update. no i wont forget you guys! hehehehe. ok so im updating. here goes.
1) i finally, cut my bloody hair. from long, till short. but not too short for the hari raya. i wanted to cut it shorter, but thinking back, i sincerely do not want to upset my aunties and grandmother. like real. i just want to shut them up. but! will cut again after rayas.

2) we had an Amazing Race race yesterday. the whole day. the first half of the game we were number 10. but towards the end, WE WERE TEAM NO. 1!!!!! yeah. we rock. and im the only girl in the team. go Purple Pimps! thats our team name. huahahahahaha. happy of course, but i suffered with 4 big big blisters on my foot. hence, im not im school today. huahahahaha!

3) bloody schedule. bloody school. old teachers. same old same old crap.

yeah. thats all. preoccupied. fasting month starts tomorrow. walauweh so fast!!! but, can save money. hehehehehehe.

:: she posted @ 5:56 AM ::