27.5.04

untitled.

need. to. get. out. of. the. house. as. soon. as. i. can. because. my. parents. are. the. most. unsupportive. parents. ever.
i. have. the. father. of. all. emo. for. a. father.
and. my. boyfriend. is. also. emo.
shitness.
anyone who has job vacancies please tell me. a.s.a.p. till end of next week. thank you.

:: she posted @ 5:29 AM ::

26.5.04

Not on hiatus.

yes lah im back from all the studying and hassle from my elder sister's engagement ceremony! and today was my last day of the final exams! i can smell the holiday season, which is tomorrow. ahhhh. post exam relaxation sure are blissful. and pinkharma, im back! (",)
how i hate to fill my brains with insensitive thoughts from others and stressful events. how i hate to be pushed around and that i have to do what others want. which are mostly useless things. how i hate to be the one getting scolded for all the things that i didnt do. how i hate to be bashed for nothing.
how i hate to be brought up like this. i wish to be reborn. but then i have to be dead before i will be reborn. i dont want to die. let me repent before i die. people die almost everywhere, anywhere and anytime. how would we know when or how or where will we die. must we repent now, or must repent later? death strikes anytime, even when im typing im sure someone is dying. every minute there's someone dying. so, repent now or repent later? i wish to ponder.
dear parents, dont blame us children for pointing guns at each other. blame the bush administration.
dear parents, dont punish us if we start to kill each other. blame the bush administration.
dear parents, dont blame us children if we hate other races. blame the bush administration.
dear parents, dont blame us if we have underage sex. blame the bush administration.
dear parents, dont blame us children if we go against you. blame the bush administration.
dear parents, dont blame us if we decide to change religions. blame the bush administration.

how would i like to spend my holidays? beach, exercising and endless walking. walk and walk until i find myself again. its time for me to unwind yo!
and yes, your sinister menace has come back.!

:: she posted @ 5:38 AM ::

19.5.04

what the?

Hearing: Guns N' Roses - sweet child o'mine.

just now my nose went berserk and i started sneezing and wipe my nose on my pajamas. when i looked down on my pajamas, i saw a flying ant stuck on the pajamas. right where i wiped my nose. did i just sneezed a flying ant?! what the fook!
??!!
as you can see, i can't resist blogging. as what i have posted below, im a sucker for blogging. ungh. ok want to study.
still thinking about the ant stuck on my pajamas, though. eungh.

:: she posted @ 5:19 AM ::

17.5.04

Tanpa jam.



went to change handphones and line at compass point. call me a starhub-ber yo! yes, i've betrayed singtel. haah! its for the better. my old handphone switches off by itself, and no matter how long i charged the battery, its still 3 or 2 bar. the battery is loose. i might as well hor. now i have to adapt to a different kind of ringing tone and buttons. and bill. bah.
after that went to lepak with my bf (taking the picture), farhan (beside me without a girl), shaz and mel and joe. we had fun talking crap and shit. and shaz gave me a idea. if i have a car, im pretty lucky to have an extra tyre! and a float cos i can't swim!
sorry dear!
but it was fun.
i will not be updating for a few days. studying. see if i can restrain myself from the blogging world. haah!
goodnight!

:: she posted @ 6:50 AM ::

12.5.04

Fuct.

shitness. shitness all over today. all my time was wasted by sitting down, waiting. i hate waiting. the longer i wait, the more red i see. but why wait? because im revengeful. i like to get back on. so much for getting back on. always end up going home. and i end up chasing after. im fucked up. you've done that countless times. what did i do to deserve this treatment.
im a rag, rag doll.
so, the whole ahmad ibrahim secondary population is going to the big walk? this i must see. that principal mr keng joo (or keju) is sure hungry for publicity. he's been hungry for publicity eversince he took over the school i went to. tsk tsk.
retail therapy. bought a candle from art friend. not ashamed to say this, bought pantyliners and biore pore pack from watsons.
ungh.

:: she posted @ 6:31 AM ::

11.5.04

roses really smell like..

see the new purplish layout? if not hit the refresh button, yo!
thanks kak pau. (",)
i have an exam tomorrow and im here. in front of the pc. :P
is singapore hot nowadays, or is it just me? the weather is making my cheeks all red. people thought i wore blusher to school. me? blusher? helloooo.
i have to study!

:: she posted @ 5:33 AM ::

10.5.04

california here we come. back to where we started from.



yes. i need to unwind. so many things are going round, tumbling, twisting and turning in my head. ungh. its almost unbearable. took things to comfort the mind, but it doesn't work. there's nothing tingly about all my thoughts. i think too much. im afraid of having a blood clot in my brain.
enough lar of my mindless rantings! time to go back to my own heck-care, i-dont-care-what-you-think attitude. right, ayu? hehehe.*winks*
yes yes. went to the zouk=flea+easy flea market! went with my bf and farhan. it was damn hot mann. nonetheless, the flea was ok. but not as many people as i expected. this time its more laidback and chill to the sounds of house music. i was tempted to buy this antic phone..but! i end up buying a tee shirt. saying, " guitar player." heeh.and oh, we both wanted the same bag, right pinkharma? heeh.
and i had exam today. i studied la dey. yesterday study, you know. exam today is ok, quite easy. i hope i'll pass. next exam, wednesday.
ack.
for a little girl, i sure know alot.

you can always run..running in the sun...

:: she posted @ 6:45 AM ::

8.5.04

Song of the Month.

Keane - Somewhere only we know.

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

********************

:: she posted @ 3:01 AM ::

3.5.04

press button. on.

ya i know its been a week i have not update. but! been busy hor. been busy feeding my pet at neopets that is! hhehehe! nolah, exams are coming, coming home late because of class tests and all, then all tired and bundled up at night. hence, not being able to function that well.
so, watched dawn of the dead last wednesday with the significant other at cineleisure. the movie is, was, goooood! alot of blood and gore, and some more blood and gore. tons and tons of zombies. and to think that its a serious movie, there's actually some humor in it. yup yup. its a good movie all right. but there's no explaination how the people turned into zombies. that's a minus point.

today, one of classmates came to school with a vespa. biasalah, baru dapat lesen, beb! a very old one. VERY. the meter is not functioning, one of the brakes a re not functioning, the brake lights are fading. that will attract a traffic police like a bee sensing a flower full of pollen.
cant wait for my bf to pass his car license. hehehe. that's my job, to tompang!

im going to the flea! anyone else going to the zouk flea market on 9th may? tell me.

:: she posted @ 6:28 AM ::